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Finding Strength in Goodbye: My Dad’s Journey and His Legacy

I am not sure how to even start writing this so I will start by saying thank you. Thank you to everyone who has supported my dad and our family throughout this time. From your prayers, love and donations. From friends picking me and my sister up at all hours of the night, to our friends watching over our home while we are away, to my company and my dad’s company for the dinners and supporting us in taking the time away to be together, to everyone and everything, big and small. We couldn’t do any of it without your support.

Writing this feels impossible, but I know itโ€™s important to share. Last month, I wrote about my dadโ€™s battle with cancer and the strength he showed every day. Today, Iโ€™m sharing the news that my dad, Randy, passed away on November 11, at 9:50pm PST. Even as I write these words, itโ€™s hard to believe theyโ€™re true. I feel like I am living in a nightmare and I will wake up and he will just be here, playing his switch or watching star trek. But no matter how hard this hurts me, to live without him, I know he is in a better place and free of the pain he was in.

My dad was truly amazing. He was strong, loving, and the best father I could have ever asked for. He taught me everything I knowโ€”how to stand up for myself, how to work hard, and how to never let anyone tell me I couldnโ€™t achieve something. He showed me what it means to be resilient and never give up, no matter the challenge.

He was also my biggest fan. Whether it was watching my YouTube videos or being the first to like and comment on them, he always made sure I knew how proud he was of me. His unwavering support and belief in me have shaped who I am today, and I will carry those lessons with me for the rest of my life.

I have so many cherished memories of my dad that show just how selfless and loving he was. When I bought my first house in Utah, he didnโ€™t hesitate to fly out and help me move everything. It was just him, my sister, and me, hauling furniture and gym equipmentโ€”including my heavy weightsโ€”down to the basement. We laughed through the exhaustion, joking that we were way too old for this and swearing weโ€™d get movers the next time. His willingness to help, even when it wasnโ€™t easy, meant so much to me.

My dad always made it a priority to show up for me, and one of my favorite memories is when he flew out to Utah to watch me compete in my first ‘Official’ UT CrossFit competition. It was the first time heโ€™d ever seen me compete, and having him there meant the world to me. I can still picture him helping me gear up with my vest, and the photos from that day are ones I will cherish forever. His presence made me feel unstoppable.

More recently, as I was training for a half marathon, he became my biggest cheerleader. Every Sunday during my long runs, he would cheer me on, encouraging me to keep going and reminding me how proud he was.

Iโ€™ve decided to run that half marathonโ€”and every race after itโ€”in his honor. Each mile I complete will be for him, carrying his memory with me and the strength he always believed I had.

I am so grateful for the time I was able to spend with him this year and to have been there to shower him with love as he joined my Noni, Nono and Uncle Rick in heaven. Though he is not physically with me, I know his spirit is here, guiding me and protecting me. I know he is watching over me, my sister and mom and we will continue to look for the signs that he is still here. Some days it feels like I can barely get out of bed but I promise to him that I will live, that I will do it all for him.

As we move forward and try to navigate what this chapter of our lives look like I am so grateful for the love and support we have had from friends and family. As many of you know, my dad was the heart of our family, the provider, and our rock. To support my mom, weโ€™ve kept his GoFundMe page active to help ease some of the financial burden and allow my mom to focus on healing.

If you feel moved to contribute or share the link, it would mean the world to us. Your kindness and generosity have already carried us through so much, and I know my dad would be so grateful for the way everyone has shown up for our family.

I feel overwhelmed with gratitude for the outpouring of love weโ€™ve received and the memories of my dad that will forever live in my heart. My dadโ€™s life was one of strength, kindness, and unwavering love, and I am committed to carrying his legacy forward in everything I do.

Thank you for being part of our journey and for continuing to lift us up during this unimaginable time. Whether itโ€™s through a prayer, a kind word, or a contribution to his GoFundMe, please know that your support means more to us than words can ever express.

My dad always taught me to face life with courage and to never give up. And while the path ahead feels uncertain, I will honor him by living fearlessly, just as he would have wanted.

U๐“ƒ๐“‰๐’พ๐“ ๐“ƒ๐‘’๐“๐“‰ ๐“‰๐’พ๐“‚๐‘’, ๐“ˆ๐“‰๐’ถ๐“Ž ๐’ป๐‘’๐’ถ๐“‡๐“๐‘’๐“ˆ๐“ˆย ๐Ÿ–คย โ€“ ๐’ฏ

This isn’t goodbye, this is simply see you later Dad โค

LIFE UPDATES!

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The last time I placed pen to paper or in this case thoughts to keyboard was in May of this year. That is wild. If you follow me on other social media platforms you know that the last 6 months have been wild. For those who are new here, or who do not follow me on other social platforms, it is time I provide a few updates and share where I have been the last 6 months.

Where do I even start… I guess the best way is to break it down by month. Let’s see what I can remember.

๏ผญ๏ฝ๏ฝ™: I promised I would start writing monthly recaps. While the intent was there, the commitment was not. I apologize! At least by end of this year we will get back to monthly recaps. Some positives of May were I launched my app programs and started vlogging again on Youtube. If you have not checked my latest videos out you can view them here:
โ€“ย Fashion / Clothing Hauls & Reviews
โ€“ Cooking Through Cookbooks
โ€“ย Adventure Vlogs
โ€“ย and so much more!
May was just starting to get good– but then the unthinkable happened. We got a call from my mom– my dad was in the ER with immense stomach pain, we thought oh shit, appendicitis? GI Issue. It was more than that. My dad had a mass pushing on his appendix causing his appendicitis, it had to be removed fast so off to emergency surgery he went. So on the first flight out of UT, my sister and I flew to California to be with him. What happened next is unimaginable. My dad was diagnosed with Stage 4 Metastatic Colon Cancer. Yeah, you heard me. Metastatic. The one thing that made me smile in May was my Binks turning 15. But from May to now… my months started to run together and I just couldn’t get myself to write these blogs. It felt like time was standing still.
June came anyways.

๏ผช๏ฝ•๏ฝŽ๏ฝ… ๏ผ ๏ผช๏ฝ•๏ฝŒ๏ฝ™: These two months just seem to run into one another. We spent majority of them back home in California. Getting Dad ready for treatment, working with his doctors, managers and employees to make sure he felt supported during this time.
We took dad to the lake, he had his first chemo appointments and he still was doing the things he loved, like building his models. He encouraged me to continue to do what I love which was train for this half marathon. To be honest, the running has helped me cope and in July I ran my 10k in prep for my 13.1 in November. It marked the half way mark of my training. Dad continued to fight and kick cancers ass.

๏ผก๏ฝ•๏ฝ‡๏ฝ•๏ฝ“๏ฝ” ๏ผ ๏ผณ๏ฝ…๏ฝ๏ฝ”๏ฝ…๏ฝ๏ฝ‚๏ฝ…๏ฝ’: End of summer beginning of Fall came and went in a Flash. Dad was still kicking cancer in the teeth but the first treatment did not work. They started him on a new treatment. He still was fighting an uphill battle. Our Kona girl also was battling being sick. She has been for sometime, suffering with hip dysplasia and she also had a cancerous tumor removed this year. Kona and Dad fought together. Everything was going well so we tried to get back to some sense of normalcy and planned a few trips in September to celebrate Levi and Lo’s birthdays. We were able to make it to Southern Utah to be with friends and enjoy nature but after we returned, all hell broke lose.

It was a series of emergencies that seemed like it was out of a movie. First, we lost out sweet girl Kona. It was the most tragic thing to have to go through. She fought so hard and long but it was her time to meet Bucky over the rainbow bridge. It was tragic, the last weekend we drove out, never would have thought it would be my last with her. The following few weeks were even more traumatic. Mom had to have a procedure done to place a stent in her bile duct to help her pass gallstones. We had known this was coming, it was a simple out patient procedure all was to be well. Tuesday she is back home recovering and my dad gets sicker– high blood pressure, fast heart rate, pain again– off to the ER they go. Tuesday night my sister and I are on a flight back to California, Seattle trip canceled. Dad has two blood clots (PEs) in his lungs. They had reached their final destination but now he would be on blood thinners for his life. He is doing well, all is good, I stay with him the second night we are in town and at 3am my mom ends up in the ER on the first floor below us. She is in immense pain and then that day, has emergency surgery to remove her gallbladder. Recovering the next day in the hospital she is doing well so they release her. We are all back home, recovering and Saturday happens. My mom is back in the ER with a Blood Clot in her lung. Another WTF is happening moment. She is too placed on blood thinners monitored over night and release the following day.


That leads us all the way to present day.

๏ผฏ๏ฝƒ๏ฝ”๏ฝ๏ฝ‚๏ฝ…r: It takes a village and we could not have done anything without the help of Our neighbors Pauline and Dave and my dad’s friend John that week/ Weekend. It was a series of WTF moments but I can say that everyone is back home and safe and recovering. Dad has his 4th treatment on this new Chemo drug and while Mom is still recovering, she is a true super hero taking care of my dad. Her strength is stronger than anyone I know.

If you stuck around this long I appreciate you and thank you for supporting me, my family and this blog. It is so appreciated. For October, Fall has arrived and we are trying to live each moment, for us, for my family, for life. Because life is so short and it should be lived.

If you would like to help my dad fight his cause, he has a GoFundMe page. We appreciate everyone who has donated so far. It has helped him get things like medical supplies, his walker, nutrition supplements and pay for the co-payments for treatments. My family and I appreciate all of your thoughts, prayers and good vibes.

Healthy eats! · Inspirational Posts

Yes, it’s Christmas time!

Friends! What an amazing last two weeks. First Thanksgiving and now it is Christmas Time! That means hot cocoa by the fire, Christmas Lights and lots of happiness.

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So much has happened in the last two weeks, I wanted to give you a tiny life update:

My sister finally moved to Utah!ย 

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That is right, we filled an enormous thermos full of coffee and hit the road!

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You may have seen all the shenanigans on my Insta-Stories.. Well they continued…ย  with gym sessions, apartment hunting, shooting at the range and now, we are settling into the Christmas Season, reliving all the childhood things we would do with our parents.

First up, Christmas Lights at Temple Square in Salt Lake City, Utah.ย 

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If you are not familiar with Temple Square, this building pictured above is a worldwide icon of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and the heart of Temple Square.

During Christmas, shortly after Thanksgiving, the square is transformed into a festival of beautiful lights.

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Not only do they have beautifully strung lights all down the path ways but there areย  handmade paper lanterns with the message โ€œpeaceโ€ in different languages. So inspiring!

People from all over Utah, and some passing through, come by to experience the magic of the Holiday season here.

It warmed my heart to experience such beauty with my best friend! It also inspired us to relive a family fun activity…. Christmas Cookie Decorating.

 

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There is a hilarious video of this up on my Vlog… we sample them at the end. There also is another announcement so go check it out here: https://youtu.be/jTQvqNZBfmk

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We used a standard sugar cookie that was store bought since we were too impatient to actually make them. Thanks Harmons for having a bomb AF Bakery; however, we made the frosting from scratch.

What you need:

  • 2 Sticks of butter, unsalted, room temperature
  • 2 TSP of Vanilla Extract
  • 4 cups of powdered sugar
  • Food coloring (we used red and green but they looked like pastel colors haha)
  • Mixer (stand or hand is fine)
  • Piping bags or Ziplocks work just as good
    • Note if using Ziplocks don’t squeeze like the hulk… if you watched the video you know why.
    • Some recipes call for milk but we don’t use it in this one

Directions:

  1. Creamย  butter with a hand mixer or the whisk attachment of a stand mixer until smooth and fluffy. Gradually beat in confectioners’ sugar until fully mixed in, scraping the sides until fully mixed. Beat in vanilla extract.
  2. Add in food coloring and beat until desired color.
  3. Scope into piping bags or Ziplocks
  4. Decorate!

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We had some interesting piping skills– as you seen in our video haha but it was so much fun and they tasted even better!

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Now you have the goods, go give it a whirl at making your own frosting instead of the processed store bought kind. It makes for more fun and tastier experience! Plus, you can add any sort of extract you want to make fun flavored treats this holiday season.

As we head into the upcoming week, I will be flying off to San Francisco for a quick trip and then back with more exciting updates!

Send us your topics for the blog by emailing: coachtina.teamfearlessfitness@gmail.comย 

Make sure your subject is: Blog Request so we can find you!ย 

Thanks again for stopping by and remember, like, subscribe and share for more each week.

May your days be filled with joy and love this holiday season.

Be kind, love others and stay fearless โค Coach Tinaย 

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Have your cakes ๐Ÿฐ and carrots too ๐Ÿฐ!

I love carrot cake… And I love pancakes… And this recipe is just what I need…. Without the guilt! ๐Ÿ˜  

All thanks to the MFP blog.. We are able to feature this yummy treat just for you!
  
Carrot Cake Pancakes!!

Ingredients

1 1/4 cups all-purpose flour (about 5.6 ounces)

1/4 cup chopped walnuts, toasted

2 teaspoons baking powder

1 teaspoon ground cinnamon

1/4 teaspoon salt

1/8 teaspoon nutmeg

Dash of ground cloves

Dash of ground ginger

1/4 cup brown sugar

3/4 cup low-fat buttermilk

1 tablespoon canola oil

1 1/2 teaspoons vanilla extract

2 large eggs, lightly beaten

2 cups finely grated carrot

Cooking spray

3 tablespoons butter, softened

2 tablespoons honey

Directions

Weigh or lightly spoon flour into dry measuring cups, and level with a knife. Combine flour, walnuts, baking powder, cinnamon, salt, nutmeg, cloves and ginger in a large bowl, stirring with a whisk.

In a separate bowl, add brown sugar, buttermilk, oil, vanilla extract and eggs. Stir until well combined.

Add sugar mixture to flour mixture, stirring just until moist. Fold in 2 cups grated carrot.

Heat a large nonstick skillet over medium heat. Coat pan with cooking spray. Spoon 4 (1/4 cup) batter mounds onto pan, spreading with a spatula. Cook for 2 minutes or until tops are covered with bubbles and edges look cooked. Carefully turn pancakes over; cook 1 minute or until bottoms are lightly browned. Repeat procedure twice with remaining batter.
Combine butter and honey in a small bowl and serve with pancakes.

Nutrition Information

Serves: 6 | Serving Size: 2 pancakes + 2 teaspoons honey butter mixture

Per serving: Calories: 310; Total Fat: 13g; Saturated Fat: 5g; Monounsaturated Fat: 4g; Cholesterol: 87mg; Sodium: 335mg; Carbohydrate: 42g; Dietary Fiber: 2g; Sugar: 19g; Protein:7g
Nutrition Bonus: Potassium: 268mg; Iron: 10%; Vitamin A: 5%; Vitamin C: 1%; Calcium: 12%

Recipe credit: https://blog.myfitnesspal.com/carrot-cake-pancakes-2/?user_id=94179573051309&alt_source=mfp&alt_medium=email&alt_campaign=recipes20151130&utm_source=mfp&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=recipes20151130&mkt_tok=3RkMMJWWfF9wsRolu6rAZKXonjHpfsX84%2B4oXa%2B%2BlMI%2F0ER3fOvrPUfGjI4CTcVmI%2BSLDwEYGJlv6SgFSrTFMblm0LgLXhM%3D

 

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Time to celebrate!!!

How are all my loves on this brisk fall evening? Well I hope! I am ๐Ÿ˜‰

I just got home from an amazing weekend celebrating my sisters birthday! She turned the big 23! And Lordy did we celebrate! There was a candy bar and cookies! Nachos and all kinds of carnival treats!

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Yes I consumed it all and no I don’t have any regrets!! But it’s time to get back on the wagon. And tonight I did just that. It was a slow easy workout since I was also not feeling well but I got some good cardio and sauna time in!

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Now it’s time to snuggle with my boo!

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And don’t forget! It’s okay to indulge a little and it definitely okay to celebrate! So DONT GIVE UP!

Always remember that in life we are never defeated… Unless we give up
โค๏ธTina

Fitness · Healthy eats!

Happy Fall Ya’ll!

Hi all! Well it has been a little bit but I have been enjoying having my boo home! Tell you that a day is too long with out him but 14! Now that is long, distance definitely made my heart grow fonder ๐Ÿ™Š๐Ÿ˜.
๐Ÿ˜glad he is home! Obviously we had to take a selfie

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Anyways, now I’m back! And I told you I would be experimenting with all things pumpkin and making healthy yummy goodness! Heck, you will be in heaven when you try this pumpkin chocolate protein pancake recipe!
Don’t these look amazing???

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Well they are loaded with sugar and calories. But I love pancakes! So below is my alternative chocolate pumpkin protein pancakes!!! Try them out and tell me what you think!! The nutritional value is below!

Ingredients:
2 Scoops of Muscle Milk Chocolate Protein Powder
1cup of Pure Pumpkin
2 tsp cinnamon
2tsp pumpkin pie spice
1/2 tsp nutmeg
1 tsp baking powder
4 egg whites
1 cup oats
1cup & 4tbsp water
4 packets of stevia

Directions:
Blend all ingredients
I used an ice cream scope to pour the pancakes on the hot griddle. Serve with your fav sugar free syrup or eat plain! They are amazing!!

The recipe makes 22 small pancakes, the serving size is for 1 pancake ๐Ÿ™‚ and check out their nutritional value!

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Happy Fall all!! Enjoy the fall season ๐Ÿ‚๐Ÿ of pumpkins ๐ŸŽƒ cozy nights ๐ŸŒƒโ›บ๏ธ And most of all football ๐Ÿˆ๐Ÿ˜ until next time!

Xoxo โค๏ธTina

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Summer has come and gone…

What an amazing view!

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happy first day of September!!!

We all know that means pumpkin everything! Stay tuned for some fall recipe swaps ๐Ÿ˜‰

Well to start off I apologize it’s been forever since I have wrote out a few lines but life has in a sense gotten away from me and not in a good way even though these past few days have been awesome since I have been with my fam!

On a progress note! I’m down 6.1 lbs. I haven’t weight in this week but I did take a progress photo for you!!

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I’m still a work in progress and I probably always will be. I struggle and I fall, but all of that doesn’t define me. What defines me is how gracefully I rise as I get back up.

People will hurt you, they will break promises, they will change, and they will change again. Don’t let that bring you down. It only makes us stronger.

Enjoy this beautiful first day of September, as summer fades into fall…

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โค๏ธTina

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May the odds ever be in your favor

Well today was the first struggle. I’m shocked and proud all at once.

Tonight I won’t be hitting a double day because I will be enjoying the handsome (not as cute as my bf) Dierks Bently at shoreline! Holler if you’re going too!!

With that being said I needed / need to stay strict with my eating and definitely get my running in at lunch. Well… I struggled. I had a coworker say she was walking to target, shopping is my weakness and my boyfriend said he was sore so there I was.

defeated

I had no motivation to want to run 2miles. But a little voice in my head said ugh wake up Tina!!! Get your butt to the gym. You are gonna be resting tonight! Then my boyfriend stepped on and said “babe you got this lets go to the gym I’ll find something I can do” (he’s nursing an ankle injury)

And boom! I did just that! Drove us to the gym and got my 2 miles in! Definite victory! Best part was I ran and watched the hunger games which I’m obsessed with ๐Ÿ˜œ

Like I said… May the odds ever be in your favor๐Ÿ’ช

FYI Nerium before pics and progress post to come soon!!

โค๏ธTina

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