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Finding Strength in Goodbye: My Dad’s Journey and His Legacy

I am not sure how to even start writing this so I will start by saying thank you. Thank you to everyone who has supported my dad and our family throughout this time. From your prayers, love and donations. From friends picking me and my sister up at all hours of the night, to our friends watching over our home while we are away, to my company and my dad’s company for the dinners and supporting us in taking the time away to be together, to everyone and everything, big and small. We couldn’t do any of it without your support.

Writing this feels impossible, but I know itโ€™s important to share. Last month, I wrote about my dadโ€™s battle with cancer and the strength he showed every day. Today, Iโ€™m sharing the news that my dad, Randy, passed away on November 11, at 9:50pm PST. Even as I write these words, itโ€™s hard to believe theyโ€™re true. I feel like I am living in a nightmare and I will wake up and he will just be here, playing his switch or watching star trek. But no matter how hard this hurts me, to live without him, I know he is in a better place and free of the pain he was in.

My dad was truly amazing. He was strong, loving, and the best father I could have ever asked for. He taught me everything I knowโ€”how to stand up for myself, how to work hard, and how to never let anyone tell me I couldnโ€™t achieve something. He showed me what it means to be resilient and never give up, no matter the challenge.

He was also my biggest fan. Whether it was watching my YouTube videos or being the first to like and comment on them, he always made sure I knew how proud he was of me. His unwavering support and belief in me have shaped who I am today, and I will carry those lessons with me for the rest of my life.

I have so many cherished memories of my dad that show just how selfless and loving he was. When I bought my first house in Utah, he didnโ€™t hesitate to fly out and help me move everything. It was just him, my sister, and me, hauling furniture and gym equipmentโ€”including my heavy weightsโ€”down to the basement. We laughed through the exhaustion, joking that we were way too old for this and swearing weโ€™d get movers the next time. His willingness to help, even when it wasnโ€™t easy, meant so much to me.

My dad always made it a priority to show up for me, and one of my favorite memories is when he flew out to Utah to watch me compete in my first ‘Official’ UT CrossFit competition. It was the first time heโ€™d ever seen me compete, and having him there meant the world to me. I can still picture him helping me gear up with my vest, and the photos from that day are ones I will cherish forever. His presence made me feel unstoppable.

More recently, as I was training for a half marathon, he became my biggest cheerleader. Every Sunday during my long runs, he would cheer me on, encouraging me to keep going and reminding me how proud he was.

Iโ€™ve decided to run that half marathonโ€”and every race after itโ€”in his honor. Each mile I complete will be for him, carrying his memory with me and the strength he always believed I had.

I am so grateful for the time I was able to spend with him this year and to have been there to shower him with love as he joined my Noni, Nono and Uncle Rick in heaven. Though he is not physically with me, I know his spirit is here, guiding me and protecting me. I know he is watching over me, my sister and mom and we will continue to look for the signs that he is still here. Some days it feels like I can barely get out of bed but I promise to him that I will live, that I will do it all for him.

As we move forward and try to navigate what this chapter of our lives look like I am so grateful for the love and support we have had from friends and family. As many of you know, my dad was the heart of our family, the provider, and our rock. To support my mom, weโ€™ve kept his GoFundMe page active to help ease some of the financial burden and allow my mom to focus on healing.

If you feel moved to contribute or share the link, it would mean the world to us. Your kindness and generosity have already carried us through so much, and I know my dad would be so grateful for the way everyone has shown up for our family.

I feel overwhelmed with gratitude for the outpouring of love weโ€™ve received and the memories of my dad that will forever live in my heart. My dadโ€™s life was one of strength, kindness, and unwavering love, and I am committed to carrying his legacy forward in everything I do.

Thank you for being part of our journey and for continuing to lift us up during this unimaginable time. Whether itโ€™s through a prayer, a kind word, or a contribution to his GoFundMe, please know that your support means more to us than words can ever express.

My dad always taught me to face life with courage and to never give up. And while the path ahead feels uncertain, I will honor him by living fearlessly, just as he would have wanted.

U๐“ƒ๐“‰๐’พ๐“ ๐“ƒ๐‘’๐“๐“‰ ๐“‰๐’พ๐“‚๐‘’, ๐“ˆ๐“‰๐’ถ๐“Ž ๐’ป๐‘’๐’ถ๐“‡๐“๐‘’๐“ˆ๐“ˆย ๐Ÿ–คย โ€“ ๐’ฏ

This isn’t goodbye, this is simply see you later Dad โค

LIFE UPDATES!

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The last time I placed pen to paper or in this case thoughts to keyboard was in May of this year. That is wild. If you follow me on other social media platforms you know that the last 6 months have been wild. For those who are new here, or who do not follow me on other social platforms, it is time I provide a few updates and share where I have been the last 6 months.

Where do I even start… I guess the best way is to break it down by month. Let’s see what I can remember.

๏ผญ๏ฝ๏ฝ™: I promised I would start writing monthly recaps. While the intent was there, the commitment was not. I apologize! At least by end of this year we will get back to monthly recaps. Some positives of May were I launched my app programs and started vlogging again on Youtube. If you have not checked my latest videos out you can view them here:
โ€“ย Fashion / Clothing Hauls & Reviews
โ€“ Cooking Through Cookbooks
โ€“ย Adventure Vlogs
โ€“ย and so much more!
May was just starting to get good– but then the unthinkable happened. We got a call from my mom– my dad was in the ER with immense stomach pain, we thought oh shit, appendicitis? GI Issue. It was more than that. My dad had a mass pushing on his appendix causing his appendicitis, it had to be removed fast so off to emergency surgery he went. So on the first flight out of UT, my sister and I flew to California to be with him. What happened next is unimaginable. My dad was diagnosed with Stage 4 Metastatic Colon Cancer. Yeah, you heard me. Metastatic. The one thing that made me smile in May was my Binks turning 15. But from May to now… my months started to run together and I just couldn’t get myself to write these blogs. It felt like time was standing still.
June came anyways.

๏ผช๏ฝ•๏ฝŽ๏ฝ… ๏ผ ๏ผช๏ฝ•๏ฝŒ๏ฝ™: These two months just seem to run into one another. We spent majority of them back home in California. Getting Dad ready for treatment, working with his doctors, managers and employees to make sure he felt supported during this time.
We took dad to the lake, he had his first chemo appointments and he still was doing the things he loved, like building his models. He encouraged me to continue to do what I love which was train for this half marathon. To be honest, the running has helped me cope and in July I ran my 10k in prep for my 13.1 in November. It marked the half way mark of my training. Dad continued to fight and kick cancers ass.

๏ผก๏ฝ•๏ฝ‡๏ฝ•๏ฝ“๏ฝ” ๏ผ ๏ผณ๏ฝ…๏ฝ๏ฝ”๏ฝ…๏ฝ๏ฝ‚๏ฝ…๏ฝ’: End of summer beginning of Fall came and went in a Flash. Dad was still kicking cancer in the teeth but the first treatment did not work. They started him on a new treatment. He still was fighting an uphill battle. Our Kona girl also was battling being sick. She has been for sometime, suffering with hip dysplasia and she also had a cancerous tumor removed this year. Kona and Dad fought together. Everything was going well so we tried to get back to some sense of normalcy and planned a few trips in September to celebrate Levi and Lo’s birthdays. We were able to make it to Southern Utah to be with friends and enjoy nature but after we returned, all hell broke lose.

It was a series of emergencies that seemed like it was out of a movie. First, we lost out sweet girl Kona. It was the most tragic thing to have to go through. She fought so hard and long but it was her time to meet Bucky over the rainbow bridge. It was tragic, the last weekend we drove out, never would have thought it would be my last with her. The following few weeks were even more traumatic. Mom had to have a procedure done to place a stent in her bile duct to help her pass gallstones. We had known this was coming, it was a simple out patient procedure all was to be well. Tuesday she is back home recovering and my dad gets sicker– high blood pressure, fast heart rate, pain again– off to the ER they go. Tuesday night my sister and I are on a flight back to California, Seattle trip canceled. Dad has two blood clots (PEs) in his lungs. They had reached their final destination but now he would be on blood thinners for his life. He is doing well, all is good, I stay with him the second night we are in town and at 3am my mom ends up in the ER on the first floor below us. She is in immense pain and then that day, has emergency surgery to remove her gallbladder. Recovering the next day in the hospital she is doing well so they release her. We are all back home, recovering and Saturday happens. My mom is back in the ER with a Blood Clot in her lung. Another WTF is happening moment. She is too placed on blood thinners monitored over night and release the following day.


That leads us all the way to present day.

๏ผฏ๏ฝƒ๏ฝ”๏ฝ๏ฝ‚๏ฝ…r: It takes a village and we could not have done anything without the help of Our neighbors Pauline and Dave and my dad’s friend John that week/ Weekend. It was a series of WTF moments but I can say that everyone is back home and safe and recovering. Dad has his 4th treatment on this new Chemo drug and while Mom is still recovering, she is a true super hero taking care of my dad. Her strength is stronger than anyone I know.

If you stuck around this long I appreciate you and thank you for supporting me, my family and this blog. It is so appreciated. For October, Fall has arrived and we are trying to live each moment, for us, for my family, for life. Because life is so short and it should be lived.

If you would like to help my dad fight his cause, he has a GoFundMe page. We appreciate everyone who has donated so far. It has helped him get things like medical supplies, his walker, nutrition supplements and pay for the co-payments for treatments. My family and I appreciate all of your thoughts, prayers and good vibes.

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Wow this weekend Flew by…

What an amazing weekend. It was filled with so many highs and then ended with some crappy lows but it is okay, you push through and you move forward.

To give you a recap:

FRIDAY: I had the day off. YES. I know.

–It honestly was amazing. I had appointments in SF but I got to workout on my own time and do me for a while which never happens. Sometimes a girl just needs her nails did, yeah feel me ??๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿ’…๐Ÿผ

Friday night was so great! I was reunited with my dance crew in San Jose for Groov3! It was so great to one be able to dance with them again but two meet new friends and get my sweat on! I honestly believe that DANCE is a cure for any emotion you feel. It is how I made it through HS and College!

  
SATURDAY– another day of amazingness with the crew! Got to reunite with the OLD SKOOL crew at AP5 and dance our little Hearts out in Richmond, CA!

   
    
    
 Then… 11pm hit… when all you do is want to get home because you are exhausted from burning nearly 3,000 calories and your are hungry but your SUV decides it wants to be a pain and die. Yes straight up die, no battery no steering no nothing. DEAD AND GONE.

So here comes Jim and AAA to the rescue…. It is 3am… I am finally in bed… NOT COOL. So you can imagine that my Sunday was full of stress and for dinner I had a 1/2 a pint of Artic Zero Ice Cream and A box of Teddy Ghrams… Yep I ate my feelings. NOT COOL EITHER. But I am owning up to it.

I always say, what you eat in private you wear in public… that goes for me too. SO DON’T HIDE IT. Just admit to your faults and move on, life ain’t easy and we all have a struggle. IT IS REAL I TELL YOU!

So today was a lot better– back on track with my eating and I got an amazing burn in doing “livin in the 8’s”  and “21 Day Fix Cardio” this AM. Honestly, these two programs have been my Saviors since they were released! 30min workouts and dialed in nutrition with the Fix and just a fun ass workout with CIZE.

  
Again, we are hosting our August Challenge Groups all month! THIS IS HUGE, everything you need in 30days to reach your results!! YOU HAVE TO WANT THIS! I can’t do it for you! If you want to lose weight and have fun doing it than this is for YOU and I need to SPEAK with YOU ASAP. So check out my version of Livin in the 8’s and decide if you think you have what it takes to take charge of your dreams and LIVE.

  
Interested in Living your passion through CIZE, the 21 Day Fix or any other Program? Team Fearless Fitness has a customized plan for you! Just email CoachTina.TeamFearlessFitness@gmail.com!

XOXO Coach T

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The SF Giants win and I cave ๐Ÿ™ˆย 

I told you that coaches struggle too… We all do! I went over my carb containers ๐Ÿ˜ณ

Take me out to the ball game โšพ๏ธ

โ˜๐ŸปI’ll have garlic fries and a sundae ๐Ÿจ

Oh and a ๐Ÿบ… My belly feels like death. ๐Ÿ˜– 

Honestly, I tell you this because the struggle truly is real. I went 8 whole days and then

 ๐Ÿ’ฅBOOM๐Ÿ’ฅ

Work tells you to take the interns to a ball game and sh*t hits the fan. 

But you accept it and you move on. Tomorrow is a brand new day to push forward. 

To do better than before. 

To NOT GIVE UP

NOT GIVE IN

I’m on a train right now currently headed home, reflecting on my poor eating habits of tonight but honestly reflecting on how wonderful of a night it was to spend it with the love of my life and my work peeps!

Even though this train is full of screaming 15 year olds and its 3 hours past my bed time. I’m happy to have the experience. 
Happy Monday all, have a blessed night! 

Xoxo

Coach T

  

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My Journey through YouTube…

So I thought, how fun would it be to detail my 21 Day Journey through YouTube…

21 Days of Dialed in Nutrition

21 Days of amazing workouts

21 Days to get my ass in Shape and ready for my summer travels to start!

Who is ready to watch my Live Video Diary!? 

Who wants to join me? You totally can! Interested? Email me! I would love to go through this with someone as my accountability partner!

You might not realize this but us Coaches have struggles too! And goodness the struggle can be REAL! So why not join me? Why not you? All it takes it is dedication, and 30 mins a day! You got 30, right?
So check out Day one on Team Fearless Fitness YouTube Channel and continue to follow us for great updates! Tomorrow I will show case a yummy recipe from the 21 Day Fix cook book Fixate!]
Stay Tuned! 

XOXO โค Coach T

 

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Summer Slim Down with 21 Day Fix & Coach T

June 21st was the OFFICIAL start of summer!
THAT IS RIGHT… SUMMER! 
AND in 3 months, it will become everything Fall, everything PUMPKIN!
Can you believe that? Where does the time go? 
Well first lets address the NOW. The now is it is summer time. 
That is BBQ’s, Beaches, Parties and Bathing Suit season! But before all that… Have you checked in with your self and your goals? 
Where are you REALLY at? Be Honest! 
Have you been working hard all year?

Have you just been doing the minimum?

Have you not done anything at all?
If you haven’t done anything… WHAT is stopping you?
Life?

Schedule?

Procrastination?
What ever it may be.. the answer is easy… 
But first… try these simple steps:

1. Set a Goal. Make a long term and short term goal and schedule check ins with your coach to get to that goal. Set smart goals… Specific. Measurable. Action Realistic. Time based goals.

2. Effective Dosage: We get the need to have that “kick in the ass without the over load of a massive program” The answer find one that works for YOU! 

3. Be Consistent– this is a given. You must do the work to get the results. If you want to achieve your goals you need to be consistently working at them everyday. It is a process. 

4. Train Hard Play Hard—Train Smart: Finding the program for you can be tough but it doesn’t have to be when you have a Team Fearless Fitness Coach by your side! We are here to dial in on exactly what challenge group and program best fits our needs! One of our recent challenge groups to highlight is our 21 Day Fix- At home, 30 min workouts, easily portioned nutrition that will help you jump start your fitness goals in 21 days! If you are interested in this program or any other please email us directly at coachtina.teamfearlessfitness@gmail.com

5. DONT OVER THINK COST– It is an investment in yourself! Your life your health… Too many people think about cost over benefit and do not see their value in their heath investments… if this is holding you back I would love to chat… we can and will show you it’s worth!   
DON’T let your life, schedule or procrastination hinder you from hitting your goals. message us today to find out how we can transform your life in as little as 21 days! 

  

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There is just no excuse anymore…

I’ve told you many times that this whole losing weight staying motivated thing is a struggle.

It is for you just as much as me… We have to stay strong though!

I find planning my workouts before I leave on trips helps hold me accountable. My boyfriend also helps! He books hotels that have gyms ๐Ÿ˜œ๐Ÿ˜‚

We are in lovely Palm Springs for a wedding and the hotel we are staying at had “a awesome gym, looks huge online!”

Yeah right….

It had one treadmill and one elliptical and one 1970’s bow flex ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ‘Ž but I ran I used it anyways… The room literally was 2×2

Then another couple came in… You could tell new to fitness and I had only gotten 8mins and 1mile in… But I knew the gal wanted the treadmill.

So here I go, hop off hand over and head back to the room. I could have easily said forget it and go eat. But nope! I plugged in my laptop and started Turbo Fire Greatest HIITS!!!

See there absolutely is no excuse! You just have to want it!

My goal, be active everyday, no excuses.

What’s your first goal?

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Xoxo
โค๏ธT

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May the odds ever be in your favor

Well today was the first struggle. I’m shocked and proud all at once.

Tonight I won’t be hitting a double day because I will be enjoying the handsome (not as cute as my bf) Dierks Bently at shoreline! Holler if you’re going too!!

With that being said I needed / need to stay strict with my eating and definitely get my running in at lunch. Well… I struggled. I had a coworker say she was walking to target, shopping is my weakness and my boyfriend said he was sore so there I was.

defeated

I had no motivation to want to run 2miles. But a little voice in my head said ugh wake up Tina!!! Get your butt to the gym. You are gonna be resting tonight! Then my boyfriend stepped on and said “babe you got this lets go to the gym I’ll find something I can do” (he’s nursing an ankle injury)

And boom! I did just that! Drove us to the gym and got my 2 miles in! Definite victory! Best part was I ran and watched the hunger games which I’m obsessed with ๐Ÿ˜œ

Like I said… May the odds ever be in your favor๐Ÿ’ช

FYI Nerium before pics and progress post to come soon!!

โค๏ธTina

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